Complain about alone

I hate being alone at night. I go through a number of emotions because of this as I'm trying to figure out who's to blame or a solution to my despair, but in the end, I get no where. fml.

I'm 15 years old. I moved to a new country when I was eight alone with my sister and my mom. She divorced my dad when I was 5. I didnt get it and i feel like i hate my dad. I love my mom and it hurts to know that she's had a hard life her whole...